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kitty-whipped [07 Jun 2005|12:42pm] [ mood | mellon collie ] [ music | the smiths ] The time has come,yet again. 49 yepshe's dead.

comment or vomit. [05 Jun 2005|07:04pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | bright eyes ] i think everyone's "good lucks" really paid off.i won 20 dollars last night,and i won a big bet with 4 of a kind jacks.i could've kept playing and won the whole pot of 35 dollars,but it was late so i split it.ironically blake and myself were the last two people in.he got 15,and i got 20. i went to best buy with scott alexander betz today.i bought bright eyes-digital ash in a digital urn,and the bravery.so now i'm down on cash once more.i went to the mall on friday with my mom,and i purchased a pair of sandals from old navy. i found my webcam cd. ( click it or tick it ) 28 yepshe's dead.

[04 Jun 2005|08:38pm] [ mood | exanimate ] [ music | the smiths ] sheikra was definently very short,granted the drop was amazing,but it's over in 15 seconds basically.i don't want to say i was disappointed because,that'd be cruel.i had a pretty tiring day and busch gardens. blake and i came back pretty early.he went to work,i fell asleep.now i'm awake,and i think there's something wrong with the toilet again.i cannot wait to savor every last bite of a crispers sandwich.i'll be here inside blake's room till he gets back from work.woot? tonight we're playing poker at ned's,someone wish me luck! 23 yepshe's dead.

[03 Jun 2005|01:53am] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | the honorary title ] alisha carmichael turned down alcohol? precisely. i think i found true happiness tonight.there's not much more i could ask for.talking with maria and blake really have crossed me over from being the pessimistic person i am.crossed me over from dwelling on things for too much time. climb to the top of the parking garage,look at the garden.you'll understand how it feels to be infinite,like charlie in perks of being a wallflower.you'll understand. i think watching saturday night live dvd's at michael diaz's house,enjoying a mocha frappucino with chocolate syrup,and snuggling on the deep couch brought me into a good temperament.but it's quite mind boggling why i'd share this on livejournal. 12 yepshe's dead.

i started looking out for myself today. [01 Jun 2005|08:35pm] [ mood | likewise ] as raging alcoholism takes its toll there's never any in my hand. boy,how i would take em' till i fall! i started feeling bad for myself today, but then i stopped because i don't care. 5 yepshe's dead.

[31 May 2005|10:15pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | acceptance ] reminiscing with jacob houts is beautiful. something i needed.oh,you don't even know. 4 yepshe's dead.

INFECTION! [30 May 2005|11:46am] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | copeland ] i had the strangest dream last night.i went to an a static lullaby show.and supposedly from first to last was going to play after them,i got in for free.lauren m. was right next to me.i don't remember who else was there. yesterday,i did a lot of nothing.that's the way it seems to be lately.i wait for something to come up.anyway,when blake got back from his soccer tournament he came here.we watched the notebook.i'm still trying to figure out if i liked it or not.then my hunger struck,and we went to taco bell.then,my ice cream hunger struck and we went to dairy queen.ned was there with meagan and a girl i didn't know.so we talked to them for awhile. we came back to my house,then my family came home,minus my dad.can you even call him apart of my family when he lives with his cat in winter haven? i don't even know.well,they came back.my mom and brother started fighting for some unfathomable reason.i didn't want to be here anymore.so blake and i went to his house,and had a cup of tea. 7 yepshe's dead.

[27 May 2005|02:15pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | umbrellas ] alison's leaving.this is actually real. i guess telling yourself it's not does nothing but make things worse. i'm upset with myself,for so many things. but i'll put that behind me,and focus on the now. life continues to change, this week ultimately has changed me forever. not into a different person persay.i haven't lost myself. i guess i've got a new perspective. last night i went to old town with hoss & blake. we went inside the wax museum. i can say it was quite enjoyable. as we were walking down a sidewalk a man popped out of nowhere with an alligator puppet and succeeded at making me jump & squeal. kitty marie just hissed at midnight. moments before they, including pumpkin were trying to be stealth ninja like.maybe like the cats in the movie "cats & dogs", they were trying to break into the cat food that's in the pantry.all three of them-such a kodak moment. it's seems like everyone's out and about. and i'm sitting here.i feel like watching killbill. 18 yepshe's dead.

[26 May 2005|12:56pm] I love you 11 yepshe's dead.

[25 May 2005|09:17pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | interpol ] i stayed at blake's last night. he bought me solarcaine burn relief aloe extra spray. i've got the sudden desire for smores cereal. mm,the correct spelling is "smorz". as for today's matters,i woke up in a bed that wasn't mine,however,i did come home to take a shower.then blake and i went to the mall.i met chance and clif.their nametags for chick-fil-a say "chili" and "willie".i found that pretty interesting. midnight's playing with ice that fell out of the freezer. this is a generally boring post,however,i'm not boring. p.s.-new layout,sort of. 15 yepshe's dead.

[24 May 2005|10:30pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | slipknot_vermilion pt. 2 ] i went to daytona with maria,kenny,tait,and justin. i'm very burnt and i got hit in the face with a football. i took a shower in blake's bathroom. i snuggled with baylee. i ate pineapple/ham pizza. and now things have been clarified. 4 yepshe's dead.

[22 May 2005|10:46pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | armor for sleep ] class 101 on what alisha says while un-sober. Alisha: So did the blue just walk out of you hair? Justin: No it ran. [alisha laughs hysterically for 5 minutes] EDIT: Alisha continues by,asking where Blake's dog is. 10 yepshe's dead.

[22 May 2005|10:58am] [ mood | restless ] [ music | blake's fan. ] saturday,how nice.decided to play poker and lose,but that's alright because blake won 55 dollars.then decided to drink with justin,blake,and crazy rednecks but really it was a 4 people party in john's room.scott betz should seriously be shot.right now i feel like i could sleep for days,and futrell's in the shower.i'm going to sleep,and then i want chilis.i've got the munchies and it's killing me,and this after-taste is repulsive. 8 yepshe's dead.

EXPLODING UTERUS [20 May 2005|02:04pm] [ mood | quixotic ] [ music | mindless self indulgence ] i love it when smart people named blake futrell leave lights on and the car battery dies. i just checked my grades online,because now everyone has the "privalege" to do that,and i've definently got straight A's.so naval here i come. i'm recieving a new cellular device today,so now mine won't suck anymore,in fact,it'll be great. my uterus is in fact,i believe,exploding.midnight is my cat now.she's here,but i have to keep her in my room,because kitty marie decided to be a female dog. 7 yepshe's dead.

Mmm. [16 May 2005|06:57pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | death cab for cutie ] i'm surprised.my mom is actually letting me have midnight.this is wonderful,sure,it's a cat,but i'm very excited.i think blake will pick her up from riley's tomorrow.or hopefully someday this week.blah,i need some excitement,real excitement.i'm slightly tired of sitting around my house.granted,i had a great conversation last night.things are looking up.looking up much more than they were a few months ago,i believe.i guess this is what you call happiness,or this could be an illusion,i also guess that's the worse case scenario. i bought a bracelet from danielle today.it smelled fruity,and i gave it to blake.i'm over that stephanie got the job at auntie anne's,i'm actually quite happy for her.i wouldn't have much time this summer to work anyway.by the looks of it i'm going to-ashville,north carolina,then-key west,i'll also be attending a trip to canada with alison.we always have the greatest times,and i have a feeling it'll be even better than last year's trip because number one) we won't have to stare at bill's big,red,white head,and 2) we'll be in an R.V. with super nintendo and movies.i think i also may go to georgia with blake.i don't know.it's up in the air. on an even greater note: MR. PADGETT IS COACHING CROSS COUNTREY NEXT YEAR.this is exciting,considering he's my favorite teacher.we were really lucky to get him.if we still had mr. harbin i think i'd cry.there's a meeting on wednesday to discuss who is interested,and,i definently am.i haven't been active in awhile,i've been the complete opposite.i have a feeling this summer,and in coming school year will be great. i asked my mom if i got straight A's this nine weeks if i could get my naval pierced sometime this summer.she didn't say no,she didn't complain or anything.i have straight A's right now,and by the looks of it they aren't going to drop.this is excitement. 11 yepshe's dead.

Kinderwhore. [15 May 2005|05:21pm] [ mood | up & down ] [ music | coheed and cambria ] I'm taking care of a kitten for a few weeks.It belongs to Adam Tyrell Walker.Alison found it in a ditch covered in mud.She's a lifesaver.This kitten looks like Adam,it's black.Maybe they should name her Black Mamba,since KillBill is such a wonderful movie. Last night I was having a conversation with my mom and my aunt.I don't know how this came up,but back in the day,my favorite word was "vagina." My mom said any chance I got I would say it.I took this into consideration. [compliments of the V-day website.] If any of you find this offensive,I'm not sorry. Anyway,tomorrow I get to dress-up in a Toga.It's actually a purple curtain,and I get to be Portia in Shakespeare's play Julius Caesar.I get the privalege of stabbing myself in the leg with a retractable dagger.yesss. 12 yepshe's dead.

25 K Later. [14 May 2005|02:40am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | copeland ] It's like waving with your tongue and kissing with your hands.Wow,tonight was beautiful.That pretty much sums it up.There are many adjectives the world of language possesses but beautiful sounds just right.I took a lot of books from Link's house,and Alison's house.Blake & I watched some of the Friday the 13th marathon. "She asked me if I believe in love.I thought about it for a bit and I told her I did.When I see elderly people walking outside holding hands and smiling together I see love.Those two people have probably been together most of their lives.They have been through things which I can't even begin to imagine.They've been together more that twice as long as I've been alive.That's love,it just has to be.I told her that I see a lot of superficial love in the world today.I told her I see superficial love more than anything but that doesn't mean love doesn't exist.Even if this world is eventually overrun with superficial love real love will still exist,it just won't be easy to find.We live in a world where it's more likely to hear about a divorce that a marriage,where children fall asleep at night to the sound of two people yelling at each other down the hall in another bedroom,where it's a common place for a husband and wife not to share the same bed,after so many years the marriage has become stale.It makes me wonder what my generation is in store for.By the time I'm ready to get married will it even be worth it? Statistics of failed marriages are already stacked against my generation,how bad will it be by the time I'm 27? Or will my generation turn everything around? Will my generation wait until their truly ready and with the right person and then get married? Will my generation change everything and lower the divorce rate? I doubt it,I highly doubt it.So do I believe in love? I suppose so.Just because it's hard to come by doesn't mean it isn't real.It's hard to come by a million dollars,but we all know that a million dollars exists.We're on a downward spiral and soon finding true love will be as likely as winning the lottery.I say so be it.I do my best work solo anyway." -Bradley Panic. 7 yepshe's dead.

Chippie. [12 May 2005|07:34pm] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | the garden state soundtrack ] As I was walking to 7th period,someone yells my name.I turn,and it's Blake Futrell."Do you want to skip the rest of the day with Riley,Hoss,Will,and myself.I reply,"sure",and that's just what we did.Left school at 12:15,ordered pizza,watched Evolution,and played ping-pong at Marco's.I said outloud that I love Riley's cat,and his mom said "Do you want her? Seriously,talk to your mom about it,and I'll give her to you." SCORE.This cat is beautiful.My mom is kind-of skeptical about it,since we have two cats already.I have so much shit to do. Summer is so close, It's for the best. 6 yepshe's dead.

alisha carmichael what? [11 May 2005|03:08pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | interpol ] Dustin: Were people still drunk all the time during the Renaissance? Mrs Rudd: Well,it depended on their size.For example,say Miss Carmichael drank two/three beers,she'd be on the ground passed out. Random kid: Some people build up an immunity. Dustin: ALISHA has immunity. Mrs. Rudd: Alisha looks like a person who would never do anything wrong. What an interesting first period.Anyway,I skipped 5th with Blake,Matt,and Hoss.The security guard is apparently a douche,who doesn't stop 4 kids inside an explorer without an OJT sticker. We got some food from the mall,and we came back for 7th.Jerry,Tait,and myself disected a frog.We opened the stomach and found a beetle.The smell was rancid,but it was fun. I spent most of last night dragging this lake for the corpses of all my past mistakes. 7 yepshe's dead.

Don't Panic. [09 May 2005|05:47pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | iron and wine/frou frou ] according to shawn waters "females are the dumbest thing on this earth and they lie".how's that for a big slap in the face? as for other slaps-life did that to me today."hello alisha" [slap!].it was bound to happen sometime.it's basically left me speechless.i really have nothing to say.well,sure i do. [ah]-the truth hits you hard.it will get better.sure,i could tell myself that.or,i could live in the moment.but what's living in the moment worth when it's just going to be over,and you're going to wish it was still there.then again,that's questioning the point of life itself. i'm scared.shitless. 10 yepshe's dead.

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